Books

I have wholeheartedly avoided writing this book, all while knowing in my soul that the book lives within me. God has been working in me, all the while, bringing me to a place where I now have the courage and strength to write; but more importantly to share, be vulnerable, and give God control of whose hands flip through these pages.

I am one of the many who experienced sexual abuse during childhood for over a decade.  Some of that trauma was always a part of my consciousness, a lot of it was repressed and not available to me consciously until I was 38 years old.  However, the evidence of the buried trauma was emotionally and relationally very present, as well as present in pieces of what I thought to be just my personality.  The effects of the trauma were stealth like in their ability to influence and control my behaviors, thoughts, and actions. It did so without my permission for 38 years.  My past and journey to knowing the truth about my childhood is in Part I of this book.  Part II is my healing journey, full of the impacts of childhood trauma on relationships, the influence of trauma on the brain, and most importantly ways to take back your life and your brain.  Part III focuses on my identity in Christ, posttraumatic growth, and finding purpose filled living with hope, peace, and joy.

This book is an act of obedience, an avenue to share my story, and most importantly sharing my healing. It has been emotionally, physically, and spiritually challenging to write. The peace I have now, as I complete this final step in reclaiming my past, present, and future, is confirmation that this is His book.  I pray it is used by the Holy Spirit for healing and to aide in strengthening those with a history of childhood sexual abuse.  My hope is that God will use my story to speak to a wound deep within those who desperately need their Hope Mended.